It is finished.
The first draft of “Athena’s Promise” is finally finished and in the hands of the beta readers.
I truly have mixed feelings about this. Oh, I’ve finished lots of projects, but this is my first finished novel. After I wrote the last sentence and affixed “The End”, I sat here for a minute in complete shock.
Then, I was overcome with absolute joy.
After that, another emotion took control.
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I started to feel like maybe I needed a dose of horse tranquilizer to even out this emotional roller coaster. And why was I crying, for heaven’s sake? I mean, I finished it! It was done! I should be happy and jumping for joy, right?
Well, maybe that’s how normal people are wired, but I’m a writer, remember? I know I laughed and cried through the whole thing. Traveling around with Pallas sure isn’t for sissies. There were parts which were a total joy to write and I’d sit here in front of the computer giggling like a lunatic, and others which were so difficult, and I’d cry a river for not only what I was putting her through but for the emotional toll it took on me.
I wrote the bulk of “Athena’s Promise” in about eight weeks. I’d say 75% — maybe 80%. Then, I was stricken with emergency surgery and I was derailed for a couple of months which turned into almost two years. I had a very difficult time with the ending — not because I didn’t know what happened…I did. For a long time I didn’t know WHAT my problem was, or why every time I took AP out with the intention of finishing it I bailed every time.
It wasn’t until a recent conversation with a fellow writer and very dear friend that I found the strength? Courage? to sit down and actually finish the thing. In the course of the conversation (well, there was actually more than one) there were two things he said that really resonated for me.
1. When I figured out exactly what the internal issue was, the ending would practically write itself.
So, I really thought hard about that. What was stopping me? OH!
What if I finish and it sucks? There goes all my street cred down the drain.
When I finish it, it’s the end of the relationship with Pallas. And I really love her. (Even though I have two other books planned with her. So this is bullshit.)
What if I finish it and it sucks?
Then my friend says to me…
2. “Get over yourself.”
Bingo. Go big or go home. Either I have the balls or I don’t.
Well, guess what? I HAZ BALLZ.
That’s all it took. In three days the ending was written and the first draft of “Athena’s Promise” was completed.
There now. That wasn’t so difficult. All I had to keep in mind is to get over myself, and that every new beginning is simply some other beginning’s end.
So off Pallas goes, first to the beta readers, then to revisions and editing, then cover art, formatting and on to tell her story to the wide world. I know she doesn’t suck. And now I know I can pull the trigger. Next up will be writing Athena’s Chains, and I’m looking forward to that.
I really like her, and I think others will like her, too. I can’t wait to introduce her to you all. Stay tuned for teasers and a release date… until then, please pardon me for a little bit.
I have to polish my brass balls. Heh.